'Feeling a bit down' is putting it lightly...
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Ignore the mood box, please. By now everyone know it am teh phailing.
Anyway, yes, what do i mean by awkward? Well... Eh, i dunno. I just feel really pointless, as of late. In terms of art.
Face it, you KNEW it was comming.
Yes, im going to rant about my art. BUT, im going to go "wah wah i suck i should just leave nobody cares *cut cut emo emo*".
This is the thing- Im having a bit of... Well, an Epiphany, i suppose. I've gone way beyond realizing im generaly in the lowest percentage, in terms of the Talent department, but i've only really recently begun to fully accept it... Yes, yes, practice makes perfect, i do realise that- But it's a bit complicated with me.
I started only getting mildly good enough in about... Winter 2007, i reckon. When i was 15. That's not good. Because im still not even CLOSE To being good to offering out commisions, which means i won't be getting any extra Income.
I also want to do Webcomics. But, oh, wait, at my current skill, i'd be nothing more then a Joke between the amazing webcomic artists, such as bleedman, or, the artist behind my favorite webcomic and one of my most respected artists (take that as no offence, anyone else) Miss Tracy Butler of the 'Lackadaisy' Fame. I mean, seriously for a second, let's do a comparison. First, we will have a page from my fantasy veil comic, and then one from her Lackadaisy comic:
Look, whatever way you go, you cannot put it lightly, or sugar coat the comment- My skill and talent does not even come CLOSE to the skill of that amazing woman. Fuck, it doesn't even come FAR From that talent. It comes an Infinete ammount of time behind that. And, let's bare in mind, iom NOT Saying that in a putting myself down way- I am being a realist.
Most of you on my watch list have Amazing talents. Again, i am NOT saying that in a way to offend ANYONE, i just see talents as they come, im afraid. And it really, really irk's me when these people say they are bad at it. Fuck, some people have amazing talents, and don't know how good they get it. You have to understand- Being part of a community where only the best of the ebst are truely favoured, let alone seen, and being someone with my level of talent, it is beyond frustrating. ESPECIALY When you are trying to make a name for yourself. Trying to make you characters and idea's known and loved by many- So that they can enjoy them as much as i, or anyone else can.
And DON'T Pull that pageview shit on me- Before you aruge i have a lot, bare in mind i fave a lot of shit a lot of the time- If i didn't, heh, i woujldn't even be at 3000 probebly...
And why am i mentioning pageveiws, despite the fact i don't care about them in general? Well, the key is in the title- The lower pageveiws you have, the less people have seen your stuff. It's really discouraging. Even more so when you ahrdly get comments. Im lucky to get 1 or 2.
I do understand, though- Sometimes people can;t think of what to say, or are to busy. Im not bothered if you really can;t comment. But at LEAST Tkae a loom at my work, you know? It's a huge help. Fave, comment, or neither, so long as you've seen it, im pleased. If only slightly.
Eh... What's the use.
Im sorry for having to bring this all down upon you lot. AGAIN. I can't help it- Im a Pessemist by nature, and i have less Self-Esteam then a Manic Depressive. It doesn't help when you don't have a talent worth sharing with people. At least, that's how i feel right now.
Yes, i understand practice makes perfect. But i want to share my art and everything with you now, while im still young. And these things can't be rushed. Fuck, i started drawing in 2005, and i was horrendous back then- It only took until late 2007 before my stuff became mildly passable at best- For me to get REALLY Good, it'll take years... And im going to run out of time. And that's whats truely making me sad, you know? Most of you have been neturing your talents before hand, and you where born with it. Celebrate that fact. Me? I had to try and form one myself, because i was not born with such luck. Despite having an artistic father, i never got his art gene. I had to work patheticly hard to even become passable, because i had idea's i wanted to share. And, well, when nobody seems to care BECAUSE of the fact you are just not good enough... You can't imagine how upsetting that is.
Aaah... I'm hoping i'll end up feeling better tomorow. More then likely im just needing to vent some stress. Who knows?
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Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that. It doesn't always matter with the art. Sometimes it just the idea where you should enjoy and focus.
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Sincerely from the Heart of the North,
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"Lord, what fools these mortals be!"
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And I feel bad not always commenting or reading your works. I normally do see everything you draw, thanks to the subscription. And truthfully. I'm extremely lazy with reading. Even so, I know you have a crazy imagination and really good ideas. So please don't be upset. People on this website are just too focused on fanart and godly art rather than story lines and character developments. =/
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If you really want to get better, then the only way to improve is to keep drawing & practicing as much as you can, even if it takes you years to improve. Whining like a little bitch is not going to help.
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You should come down on your self like a sack of bricks, i mean i looks at loads of people work and i'd be lying if i said i was jealous of their tlaent, BUT it spurs me on to improve and get better at the thing i love to draw.
On the pageveiw apsect, I envy you just to let you know, 11000 to my meager 2900, i mean i'm just about to scrape in at 3000, i'd consider myslef lucky... Still i know how you get frustraited by people not lesavign comments, it does get on my nerves too but i guess you have to think on the brighter side of things like that peopel will take the time to have a look at your work even if you have no clue who they are...
I mean we are all strangers once...
You should try and focus on your own studies and methods that way you don't get so worked up about how everybody else goes about things in their own way, have a lax aproach to thing and you'll probably feel better ^^
Your one of the most ambisous people i know and you'v inspired me more than once i can tell you... just don't be to discouraged, BleedMan and Tracy have had to go through the stages we're going through, establishin a stlye, developing it working with different media finding out what their good at and perfecting it, i mean i'm still trying to get basic manga stlye really good.
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Tell me about it. As i stated in my recent journal, i was being a MASSIVE Idiot last night. (Well, more of one then usual...)
And to awnser your question, yes, of course i know that. I wasn't complaining that nobody had as hard as me or some retarded DA Whore Drama shit like that. I was stating that most people where born with the Potential or some slight talent there in the begining, even if their art was as Atrocious as mine was back in 2005. (I can't even bare to look at anything from that period... it makes me ill.)
Still, whichever way you put it, i was still being a Whiny Twat.
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For you, the day Bison graced your village was the most important day of your life. But for me... it was Tuesday.
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"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING YOU MOTHERFUKERS!"
It was...........Dumbledore!
I've been trying thast for a good while now. It's slowly and slowly working... I think. I haven't really noticed any distinct differences, but im still trying.
Heh, as i said, im not bothered by having the Number of pageveiws i have, be it low or high... It's what it means that annoys me. Because i know that i never faved anything, i'd have a very little ammount. I know it's a bitchy thing to say, but, well, there you go. Still, i don't really dwell on it.
And oh god, yes, of course. Just to clear up a factor right now- When i said the words "Some people where born with it", refering to talent, what i meant was born with the Potential, or some slight spec of talent at a young age just waiting to break through. I never had that, you see. But, im dwelling to much...
Thank you for the kind and encouraging words anyway. It does mean a lot.
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... Animal Planet shows MOLLUSK SEX?!
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For you, the day Bison graced your village was the most important day of your life. But for me... it was Tuesday.
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"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING YOU MOTHERFUKERS!"
It was...........Dumbledore!
Anyway, I used to get really down about my skill level as well. I actually stopped drawing for a time because of it. But then I realised something that could help me and it might help you to, so I'll tell it to you:
You cannot become an amazing artist overnight. You probably already know this, but try thinking about the statement in depth. If you really want to improve, then don't TRY to become an amazing artist overnight. I used to attempt complex scenes with complex poses, over the top colouring and active poses, and then get upset when I couldnt pull it off. I realised I was taking on too much at once. If you really want to get really good, then you need to improve one step at a time. Find one aspect of drawing that you thik needs improvement, focus on that, and practice that particular area of your drawing. Then when you've improved at that area, try practicing a different area. Look at other artists work and try out new ideas with your art- new ways of shading, new ways of doing lines, new poses and styles of drawing the anatomy- but take it one step at a time instead of overloading yourself. Tackle things that you find hard, but not things that are so difficult as to be almost impossible. You should see a steady improvement if you do this, and if you don't, look back after a few weeks at your old stuff, and you will see it.
BTW, here's proof that things could always be worse >> [link]
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